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by **psychicmuse** » Tue May 04, 2004 11:42 pm

Does anyone here besides me really respect and admire Jim because of his history of poverty in his childhood? I had a super large family (8 kids) and my father was out of work for a couple months during my childhood and we had it rough from time to time. I was the second oldest, so it wasn't until most of my siblings grew up that the younger ones had parents with some extra money to spend on them. We were really poor and sometimes I look at Jim and think that I want to know how he ended up with so much desire to make money and I didn't. Cher and Dolly Parton are two other people like that who I admire. I mean its amazing to me that they did that.

by **JT Carrey** » Tue May 04, 2004 11:44 pm

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by **Canadian Jayne** » Thu May 06, 2004 5:35 pm

I too am one of meager means, but that's OK. My children and I lived in the country and I loved it there later I ended back in the city and it was the crisis of my life now I'm back in a country setting and I love it. My warning to my children when we moved to the city was not to get "Citified" meaning so worried about the things you don't have that you don't appreciate what you do have. Sunshine, walks, birds, people,friends,double rainbows, northern lights, parks(most) are free and sometimes give the best entertainment(when your not watching a JC movie) If you don't have alot of stuff, you don't have to move it. Sometimes adversity makes us stronger, at the time one sure doesn't feel like it but when you look back then the picture becomes clearer. I think all of us want to give something to the betterment of society and I believe laughter is a necessity to survival. If you don't feel the funnies you stay too much in the doldrums. Herein is my 2 cents upon the soap box.

by **carreypunkrawker** » Thu May 06, 2004 6:28 pm

I can relate to his father and to Jim. I've got a lot of both in me. it's so hard to get a job. especially for someone like me who's so quiet, gives in to depression, insecure, and gives in to despair so easily. I hate it. I try to get jobs day in and day out and when I go to apply it's so hard to smile. I'm shy, I'm determined, and I just ask for so much help that I don't get any. I'm dropping out of school because I cant make the grades. I'm 22 and I still can't see my future. People and friends can't relate because they're more successful than I am. WHen I'm depressed, I'm especially quiet and I keep to myself. I've learned that I have to take care of myself first, rather than anyone else. I practically walk off the face of the earth for a few months than talk. I totally withdraw when I'm depressed. I want to blow my brains out a lot. I vent when I get depressed (like i'm doing now). I do bad things to myself such as cutting myself, give up on life, force myself to throw up food, anything. I just want to die. I'm tired of being rejected. I don't care about health anymore. I always feel like i'm spinning my wheels. everything sucks and I have a feeling I'll die before I find that special someone. another Jim thing. . . the problem with love. I feel like i'll be dead before I get a job or a career. I want my life to be over with. People call me names (not for loving Jim) and all that. So far I'm a failure, ugly, stupid, etc. I'm street smart but not book smart. I have really low self esteem. I hope I never tell Jim all this. he'll freak out. . . too much info. There's only so much a person can handle, especially guys. I can't really talk to anyone. The doctors bullsh*t me and regular people in general freak out and tell me I need help. I can't get either. . . it sucks. So I totally appreciate what Jim went through. I know he felt when he was younger. I have total compassion for him. He's so real!

by **unquirked** » Mon May 10, 2004 1:51 am

Why do people freak out and tell you there's something wrong with you? This is a big, old diverse world made up of complex people. I don't think there's anything wrong with you, but from what you said, I *do* wonder if you needlessly suffer from a treatable medical condition. We all have times of despair and even wonder what the use is going on, but actually hurting yourself or coming up with a methodology for your demise indicates that maybe there *is* help for you. Isolating yourself at times when you feel down is actually the worst thing you can do. Thanks for sharing your thoughts here! I think you can get through this. 22 is a difficult age, too....you wonder what the use is bothering to turn the corner and then when you get around the corner you MARVEL at the view. There's nothing wrong with dropping out of college to focus on yourself. From what you've said. I think you need to do THAT! You probably weren't happy with your classes, or had some other issues preventing you from making the grade. I don't for one moment believe you're NOT capable. There is help available for you. I hope you can go get it! It would be a pity if you didn't. I'm not talking about bringing down your friends or leaning too heavily on someone, I'm talking about taking a positive step towards helping YOU before YOU interact with other people. I would be really happy if you would go to your local Emergency Room (it would be even better if the hospital had some type of Mental Health outpatient or inpatient facility attached) and talk to someone about these feelings you are having. They are very VERY common. You are not alone and there's NOTHING wrong with YOU! If you are in the US, any counselor or therapist that you speak to will be able to refer you to some financial help in paying for treatment. Some actually COMPLETELY waive ALL costs or have a sliding scale and accept really minimal payment plans. The most important thing is that you don't give up on it and that you don't give up on you! My thoughts will be with you! I know you can do it...I'm just going to believe in you.<img src=http://www.ezboard.com/images/emoticons/smile.gif ALT=":)">

by **Canadian Jayne** » Mon May 10, 2004 1:34 pm

This is a new song out by a country singer and I really like it. It is a great reminder of how hard life can hit but you just have to keep pluggin away. For every negative thing you think, choose 2 more that are posative. Also think about putting things that are bothering you right now in PAST, PRESENT and FUTURE 1. You can't change the past. 2. You can plan for the future. 3. Deal now with the present. Make a list on why the present things are bothering you and several ways how you can solve them. I agree with unquirked, getting help is important, it doesn't mean your weak, it means you recognize a problem. Also some churches will help or refer a person to councelling. The most dangerous downs are when one is alone.

by **carreypunkrawker** » Mon May 10, 2004 2:32 pm

hey guys. I've got some serious problems yes. I am getting help as we speak. I also do stuff to take my attention away from depression such as read books and all that. thanks for the advice and for believing in me. another problem that i have is i am an alcoholic. I get addicted and am fighting the addiction. i just don't drink. it seems to help. also, i stutter. it comes up like on and off you know? it sucks. anyways, thanks for the adivice! i'm going to work on it! thanks! i'll keep in touch with how things are coming along. later!

by **beebee** » Mon May 10, 2004 8:20 pm

Often people use alcohol or some other drug (including food) to mask negative feelings or depression. I overeat when I'm down or stressed -- am now down 20 pounds but need to lose 20 more. No matter what kind of addiction, it will kill you if you don't make the choice to live. Please remember alcohol is a depressive (which is not a good idea for a lot of us) and it also lowers inhibitions (which could place you at risk of hurting yourself). I do know most colleges offer free counselling and a counsellor will be able to help in whatever way you need (including getting you a medical leave so you could keep your educational options open for when you feel better). In any case, your priority should be your health. When you feel better and your self-esteem rises you will be much more likely to meet and have a happy, successful relationship and find the right career. (I didn't start my career until I was 25 and got over 300 rejection letters before I got my first real job). It is not romantic love you lack now but a realistic understanding of your strengths and weaknesses, values and beliefs. When you know what makes you tick, you will be far more likely to find the right partner. I really pray you feel better soon. The best time in your life is waiting for when you are ready.

by **carreypunkrawker** » Mon May 10, 2004 11:50 pm

yeah, i know alcohol is a depressant but I barely drink. I fight the urge to drink when my system screams that I need booze. i guess when i was 18 years old and 20 years old I binged or just got plain drunk and the next week i still had withdrawal. it sucked. yeah, i've taken leave before. It helped a lot. but the hospital provided for me (Charter) gave me a positive experience in the beginning but towards the end it turned into a nightmare, and I got out because my life was being threatened by others in the hospital. i was scared so I faked feeling so much better and I got out. Now I'm having what they call "a relapse". I went back into my old habits. I'm fighting it though. I haven't slept since 9 AM this morning and here it's almost 10 P.M. pretty good. i'm also doing things that get my mind off of dying, exploding and all that. but I have to stay away from certain family members so i don't get depressed. I'm not on speaking terms with them for awhile because every word that comes out of their mouth is an insult with a cheap shot with that "tone" of voice that really angers or depresses me/people. anyways, the alcohol isn't masking my problems. I know what my problem is, it's just alcohol makes me relax. my nerves relax but i can't rely on it to make me feel better, although it does. it feels soooo good to drink but i can't. i dont' need to be doing that. anyways, beebee, you have a lot of wisdom. thanks for the advice and you really told me some stuff that i needed to hear and know. like i was clueless on why i haven't found love or a job. but from your words i discovered that maybe i'm not ready and all that. I'm really working on things. it's hard and i'm struggling. thanks for the prayers. those who have faith and those who pray, continue to pray. I need all i can get. and whatever you need i'll try to provide for you all. thanks everyone for your words of comfort and testimonies. you are all a blessing! thanks again! Yours truly, Peggy oh yeah, and if you want me to pray or if i can help out in any way that is possible, email me at carreypunk@yahoo.com.

by **unquirked** » Wed May 12, 2004 1:39 am

Do you have a therapist right now? From what you're saying, while prayers may help...what might really be most beneficial is an "outsider" who can sit with you and help you understand some of the things that are going on. It's sounds like you're kind of at a "thin ice" point and might need some objective support. Try to find a counselor that you LIKE and trust. You can do things on a one on one basis, so that there's no intimidating group or "gang" setting. I really feel for you. And anyone that mocks your stuttering doesn't matter. Remember...when someone makes you feel inferior, they have your consent. I have been tested for clinical depression and thank heavens, I don't have it, although you'd really have had a hard time convincing me of that 5 years ago. I was at a point of desperation through some tragic circumstances in my life and relied on the wrong kind of outlets to "unstress". I couldn't see it, but I was really just adding more stress. While strangers can feel your pain and talk to you on a bulletin board, real person to person contact with a professional is EXTREMELY beneficial. In the five years since I was so very very down I have moved, held the SAME job, made a network of great friends and won twice on the game show "Jeopardy" last year. I hope you can seek some support and professional advice and start on a path to recovery from your pain. Many good wishes.

by **carreypunkrawker** » Wed May 12, 2004 2:57 pm

I'm seeing a therapist right now. It's a Psychiatrist. He's not great but he's something. I can vent to him and all that. How much did you win on Jeopardy? that sounds like fun. I always imagine myself on that show. Of course I can always see myself as not answering any thing. just watching. lol. I could never be a contestant on that show. Can you read the questions to yourself or is it all dictated? What's Tribek like? He really that know it all guy? lol. anyways, thanks for the advice. I guess I should really follow it. it's hard getting help, especially when I get scared of mental institutions when i'm walking on thin ice like this. But it's so hard to uncover my true feelings to someone and then the minute I mention killing myself, they have to contact parents, ER, and all that. it sucks. I wish EVERYTHING could be confidential. i hate that it's a law that the person I mention suicide to has to contact family and all that. anyways, i'm hungry. i'm gonna take a break. later! Peggy

by **psychicmuse** » Wed May 12, 2004 9:51 pm

I just wanted to say that I found psychiatric drug treatment a dead end for treatment of depression. It made it worse and I tried almost every single thing they put out on the market from 1982 - 1997. You know what I found out about psychiatric drugs? They just upset the part of your brain that's creating the depression all that hooey about "balancing a chemical imbalance" is a load of pharmaceutiful sales pitching. I've found that I corrected a long standing chemical imbalance in my brain by giving up aspartame and MSG.. and then switching to a whole organic foods diet. Seriously, years of taking psychiatric medications.. (that didn't improve one tiny single thing in my life, except the luvox slightly improved my ability to concentrate on an activity from time to time). Don't be surprised if they don't help you. During the worst crisis of my life, I got through it.. in the hospital with no drugs whatsoever. If you get to the point where you feel like @#%$, begin with your diet and then work your way out. Diet and exercize are very important. I spent the last 20 years trying to avoid the inevitable life lesson that you can't trust the food industry to tell you the truth or give you healthy food. They want to sell you food that will make you eat and buy more. They want you to be a fat consuming pig and make them rich. That's what msg is all about, eating more, and having the food taste terrible and concealing it. MSG and aspartame are excitotoxins. But then again, this is a Jim Carrey Forum, sorry for getting waaaaaay off topic. When you get in a crisis, you can be admitted for observation, don't let them give you drugs, sign yourself in and you'll be able to sign yourself out.

by **unquirked** » Thu May 13, 2004 12:37 am

I won 29,602$. I got a home computer and LASIK the rest sits in the bank earning some interest and waiting for the taxman. The show is taped pretty much in "real time" what you see on the TV is what takes place in the studio. The biggest hurdle is maintaining control over your bowels when Johnny Gilbert says your name. Because your innards seriously turn into sands through an hourglass from the nerves. I succeeded....even though I had eaten a California burger (that means it had avacado on it) in the Studio Grill an hour earlier. I have watched the show for 15 years and have always done pretty well at home. I took a test in Chicago and passed and then they interviewed those of us that passed and took polaroids. When I got the call to come for the first week of the new season I was elated, but also filled with dread. I knew that I had to be "OK" with myself even if I absolutely TANKED. And I'm blonde....there was a whole myth to debunk!! Alex was very nice, very professional and circumspect, and he is REALLY good at his job. I mean REALLY good. At the beginning of my first round, though he made a "cut" sign with his hands after the introductions had been filmed, walked off the set and came back with a piece of paper. He said, "Can't do the show without the QUESTIONS!" We all laughed and continued like it never happened. I was in negative numbers going into Double Jeopardy, but something happened and I got a burst of "something". Racing the others to the buzzer is the worst part. The buzzer was invented by Satan himself and it's all very nervewracking. But I lived. Are you a minor, Peggy? Are you in the U.S.? If you're not a minor and you're in the U.S. laws protect you from having your privacy invaded. At any rate, please please don't let fear stop you from expressing your feelings when you want to harm yourself. Everyone needs a little help sometimes. Hope you had a good meal. I made some pasta with fresh tomato, garlic, onion and a lot of fresh basil. Mmmm.

by **carreypunkrawker** » Thu May 13, 2004 1:58 am

haha. that's cool! congratulations! yeah, that sounds pressure-ous if that's even a word! wow. i like the story about the "questions". that's funny. cool. that's cool how Trebek is good at his job. awesome awesome stuff. I'm a major. I'm 22. fear is a big problem in this world. lol. how can I stifle someone from contacting someone else about me harming myself? it says in the papers that the psychologist/therapist has to do it by law. how do i stop it? also, psychic mouse, thanks for the advice on the medication thing. For now the medication is working. I'll keep my head open and eyes open and mind open (everything open) when I notice things. thanks for that advice. My goal is to start running. but it gets to about 112 degrees Fahrenheit in this city so it's hard to run during the summer. but i'll work around it. i hate running in place. lol. I'm gonna run though. I'll probably go to the beach (I live 20 minutes away from it) and run. it's nice and windy there! yeah, i'm gonna run. it feels good. I can run away with my imagination while i'm doing that too. thanks! great advice, psychic mouse! well, i didn't get to eat. I didnt want to really. I went out on the boat instead. my father, brother, and I went fishing and then for a 10 minute max joy ride. it was nice. we didn't catch any fish. we were determined but we didn't even have a nibble. we didn't use any bait. we ended up dumping it all. it was fun. cleared my head and stuff. i burned my eye with the suntan lotion though. i started sweating and the lotion dripped into my eye. i had to get Visine and have someone give me some drops. my eye's starting to hurt again. I'm gonna get mom to drop some more drops into my eye. plus i rubbed it so much that i think my eyelid is raw. sucks. see ya! later!

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