When I am thinking of it, I am thinking of myself being on her place.
I am 33. I've been in love with Jim since I was 13, I don't even imagine anyone else on his place.
And just try for a second and imagine Jim and me being a couple.
I know it's good to hang out together and enjoy our time, but I understand one day Jim would tell me that I deserve someone better, that I am in that age when I am supposed to think of having a family and my own kids. He would try to break up with me and this would break my heart. I am not that psychotype who would commit suicide, but that would no doubt tear me apart.
I guess I took her death too personally, I am too empathic. But I understand how painful it can be when here you are the girlfriend of Jim Carrey and another time you are just no one, alone in an alien country with no documents and a fake marriage. And how on Earth can anyone be compared to Jim afterwards?